Want to be the best

I desire to be the best at anything I do, competitive is not a word I often think to describe me, but I guess, in all seriousness I am. I want to be the best, I want to be better than I was before. The bible says, "Godliness with contentment is great gain." I want to be content in all circumstances, but struggle with myself to be perfect. I think most would describe me as a worrier, somewhat mellow and hardworking, I find it difficult to sit, I find it wasteful and listless, I want to do and be. I have the ability to tell my kids, my students and even my husband to dream and to follow them. But in life I find I am often a watcher, not a doer, a helper, not a leader, and a sidekick, not a leading lady. I am a fantastic Robin but not so great at Batman. I allow fear to follow and haunt me. My prayer, Lord allow me to be the best at whatever situation you place me, content in my circumstance and lead in example by doing this well. AMEN!

my goal

As I sit and reflect on the year, I think of all the years…this life is full of events that are interconnected to people and others life events. Goals…they are important to become successful, but what is success, is it achieving the goals, mastering a skill, getting a job, making money, what? I say my goal this year is to find joy in the small successes and work hard to enjoy moments. Spend time on things that matter and focus energy on those things. Be more positive and bleed that into others. BE SUCCESSFUL…that is success. This past year there has been heartache, loss, tragedies, and so many unimaginable life events that I have thought countless times, WHY, What, and how? But life is loss, and then gain, life is overwhelming joy and tremendous loss. I have watched people abuse each other, use each other and literally break each other. I want to help mend hearts by being what Christ called us to…like him, laying down our life, I have seen this year more than any other why he hung out with prostitutes and addicts, they don’t judge. Everyone has a story, some don’t have as many pages and some won’t bring as many tears to those that read it, but everyone has a story, life is hard and painful and sometimes unfair, but the bottom line is, we can make ours and others easier and palatable by simply being kind, sometimes saying nothing is the right choice, sometimes doing nothing is the right choice, sometimes people just want to be heard. I tell my students all the time, and it is time I hear it and utilize more this coming year, "communication is the key to any successful relationship" people want to be heard, listen. Sometimes we listen with our eyes, sometimes our ears, sometimes both and sometimes listening is in a hug or a tear, but listening is NEVER breaking down and criticizing, don't be cruel, don't hate...listen.