Lately I have been focusing on weight loss. My entire life I have struggled with this issue. I realize that so does half of the population. I recently had a tooth pulled and during those few days I had a soft diet and because the procedure went terribly wrong, I had a soft diet and I could taste nothing. For some, perhaps even most this might be frustrating, but for me the only frustration I felt was that I had pain in the extraction site.
Long story short I lost about 13 pounds during the week of recovery, I could not taste, I got frustrated trying to keep food on one side of my mouth and eating no longer became a joy, delight or even an obligation, but work, hard frustrating and even exhausting work. So I simply became able to do what I had not been able to do since I was about twenty years old, I said no to the little bit left on my plate, I only ate when it was absoutely necessary.
I know this is short lived and eventually the site will seal and food will become a demon again, I realize that I am addicted, not only is it an addiction, but I am addicted to something that I require to live. Alcohol, tobacco, other drugs are not required to sustain life, but food is something our body craves and needs. I do not just want it, I need it. However I believe that in this time period I have become more aware of myself and my addiction. I believe that this is an epidemic in our country. I turn on the television and one minute the commercial says please pay 35 cents a day to feed these kids, the next is an ad to lose weight. Crazy.
I want it more, I need it more. I want to be thin, I want to live. I hate being fat, I hate being the one that people look at in disgust. I really believe that this is something I can overcome and that I will.
Proverbs 5:23He will die for lack of self-control
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