Well isn't life crazy. I sit and wonder how will we ever get through and suddenly completely out of nowhere an opportunity arises. I often wonder is this me being teased or will it truly happen. I fuddenly feel heart race and a that small voice of hope within telling me to keep listening.
But the cynical side of me says, "here we go again" I have to wonder which is correct lately it seems the cynical has won out, but yet I want to have hope, I want to believe. So yet again, a waiting game. If the opportunity was certain, began tomorrow and was tangible I may have more hope yet, but yet here I sit wondering, will I feel the hope simply to have it ripped from my grasp yet again.
Not that anyone has ever said they were going to do something and then they haven't done it, no that never happens. As I sit and reflect over my lifetime, I think of all of the migth haves, should haves and maybes. So close so many times, and yet not quite. It seems that when I sit and determine with my husband this is it, this is what we are going to do. BAM, BOOM, BANG!!! there it is another offer another ray of hope. But it usually gets snatched from me like a kid holding out the lollipop for the puppy.
I want to believe. I want to trust that this could be it, the one thing that could pull us through to the end of this long hard road of darkness. Could it, maybe, these continue to be the questions of my life. Well, as I watched this movie last night with my sister-in-law I know the answer is, "Definitely, Maybe."
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